Exhausation

I am tired

Not by the lack of rest

Not by the fact that I have a lot of work

Or there are assignments waiting on my desk

 

It’s something else

The tiredness is embedded

At the back of my eyes

In my nerves, deeper within myself

 

I am tired of the fake people that exist

Who pretend they care about you

Who use you, make you love them

And then throw you into the dark mist

 

I am tired of having hope

Only to have it crushed down

By people again no less

They have left me no scope

 

Unfortunately, the thoughts don’t leave me

And nor do the people

I am weared down by the world

I have given up on most humans

 

I don’t want to be tired

But, there aren’t enough hours at night

For the kind of rest at night

So, I make a fleeting attempt to be energetic