I sit there,
Staring off into the distance.
Maybe I don’t cry anymore,
But it feels like those tears,
Have been soaked by my skin,
And that they reside in me
That’s how I’d describe the feeling
Somehow, I know that its worse
Than being sad
That feeling something
Is better than not feeling at all
And yet, it feels strangely better
As I hold no hope of being known
And without expectations
I couldn’t dream of better times
Nor wake up into dissapointment
And that is when this thing starts
The overwhelming feeling that asks me to feel
This thing in my head that asks me to feel the pain
And not keep it in
For if I shove it in any more,
It’ll probably never leave me
And I desperately want it to
As I want to feel again
I want to be able to smile
Without putting too much of an effort
I want to feel things which I thought were impossible
All I want is to feel..
quote: “And I’ve just got to let myself feel the pain, because if I don’t, if I keep numbing it, it’ll never really go away.” know the book?
PS:Also, have you ever felt this? A place where you feel the inability to feel itself?
PPS: RED(TV) IS OUT AND I CAN’T GET ENOUGH OF IT (swifties will relate)